Wednesday

• One of my granddaughters is staying with us, we have been taking turns with the grand kids and she got there last night.
• I went for a small ride on the motorcycle last night. A friend kept encouraging me to get back on and we made a deal that I would try it Tuesday night and then check in with her Wednesday morning to let her know how it went. It went pretty well slightly nervous at the beginning and then a little more relaxed, towards the end I started feeling quite nervous so I knew we needed to head home.
• I received my ring yesterday that I ordered from a friend who sells Park Lane. I love their jewelry and the parties are so much fun. The jewelry is very inexpensive if you host a party like I did.
• A friend came in telling me about a workout that she tried, Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred. So we made an agreement to do it at the same time. So last night I went and bout the video and this morning I was about to keel over dead in the living room. That 20 minute workout kicked my butt so bad. I highly recommend this, if you stick with it I just can't see any chance of not getting in shape. I will keep you posted on the progress.
• I went to my daughter's house last night, knocked on the door and no one came. Opened the door and said "Anybody home?" Walked through the dining room got the kitchen and said "Anyone home?" The princess said YEP I in bath. Too cute. We ended up outside while Scott watered their flowers they just planted and the Princess playing in the water. Oops probably needs to be rinsed off again.
• Some of my family that I haven't seen in a long time, a very long time, like I have seen them 4 maybe 5 times in the past 6 years. Only for a few minutes at a time. Prior to that we were extremely close, contacted me and said I want to try to get things back the way they were is there any chance? I consider myself to be very forgiving and I can't turn my back on anyone who says I am sorry I made a mistake and I want to fix it. If they are genuinely going to work to fix it. On the other hand, putting yourself in the position to be hurt again is very difficult. I am really wrestling with not being to guarded. They came to dinner Monday night. It was a spur of the moment thing but I think it went well. Maybe it worked better that way, no big build up to the visit and just a short window of time. We have missed out a lot on each other's lives. I will keep you posted on this too.

Weekend

I had a good weekend. Friday my daughter and I went to do a little shopping and had lunch at Red Lobster and then went to the movies. We saw Toy Story 3 it was good, very funny. We had an awesome time. I love Red Lobster. Hanging out with my daughter is always fun.
Saturday I had the Princess all day. She is a lot of work but always a blast. My cousin stopped by on Saturday but I didn't get to visit with him, hopefully he will come by again soon. I washed my dogs, they needed it.
Sunday I fixed pancakes and sausage for everyone for breakfast and then the kids went to Casey's house to help with yard work, Scott went on a ride on the bike and I was able to do absolutely nothing, read some of my book and just hung out. My brother stopped by Sunday afternoon, that is always nice.

Wednesday's Randomness

• Christopher is home from the hospital.
• Presley has new medicine, so hopefully she will be feeling better.
• I am going to spend the day with Brock and Karley on Friday, I think maybe we will go to the movies.
• Tomorrow is my Friday and after having so many days off last weekend I am ready for days off this week. Taking to many days makes me not want to come back.
• Scott and I went out to dinner last night, I love Catfish O'Harlies.
• The kids went with the neighbor and went to Casa Torres. Another great selection.
• My leg still hurts, it has been 5 weeks. The doctor said 6 weeks. I guess he wasn't kidding.
• My neighbor has surgery tomorrow. I will need to check in on her. I have the best neighbors. I took dinner to the older couple next door on Monday, she called to thank me yesterday and said her husband ate all the dessert before she got home. I took her another piece of cake last night. He wanted that one too. lol.
• My Mother's cat still lives with me, she stays outside most of the time, only starts coming inside when it's cold out. I saw her on the back porch rail this morning. I was excited hey Melly you are still here.
• Scott packed my lunch the past 2 days there is enough food in there to feed 3 of me. I appreciate his thoughtfulness but I will only be gone a few hours and I am still near civilization.

Weekend

• Friday I went to go get a new phone, I didn't find one I really wanted but I need to get a new one so there was one I could live with however they did not have it in stock. I am, at this point thinking I can just go online or to another store no big deal. The salesman offers to run to another store to pick one up. Now I know me and I know that if I don't just love something I really don't like buying it, but I said okay. So here he goes off to the other store meanwhile I am still looking at the other phones and talking to the other salesman etc. Now remember this phone he went to get is not the one I really want I am settling for this one. So 15 minutes later here he is back with the phone and ringing it up and Scott is looking on the website and finds the one I really want and it has to be ordered on line. Now I don't want to settle for this phone so I ask Can we cancel the transaction and I am really sorry? We can cancel the transaction but this is the first time we have ever had to do this and no one knows how.... I am so sorry, I really am very sorry. 15 minutes later I leave the store.....fast forward what ever he did at that time changed the settings on my account to where not only can I not send or receive text messaging I also can't order the new phone one line. ugh. I will be calling today to have everything returned to the way it was and hopefully I can order the phone this evening.
• Saturday we all went to the water park, what great timing Holiday weekend and a chance of rain, the day was wonderful not too crowded and the kids had a great time. We all had a really good day. Late that afternoon I noticed a cut on Christopher's foot between his toes it looked weird. He said he cut it at his house last week.
• Sunday Christopher is in the hospital for an infection in that cut. Turns out there is some kind of staph infection that can live even in chlorinated water. His foot is swelled all the way to the ankle. Hopefully he gets out of the hospital today.
• Monday we had a cook out at the house that was a lot of fun although Christopher and his parents couldn't be there. Then the Princess fell off the porch..... she is okay just bumps and bruises. What an eventful weekend.

Time Flies

Lately I have really been noticing how fast the time goes. My grandchildren are all getting older. My family what's left of them are all getting older, I am getting older. Have I done everything I wanted to do? Will I have regrets?

I am very lucky to have so many kids and grand kids. They make me happy in a way I can't describe. Scott is a wonderful husband. I know every day life gets in the way and I don't always tell him how lucky I am to have him but I try and I hope he knows.

I have colored my hair since I was 17 and I decided to stop doing that about a month ago. Ugh it's hard, all of my hair is gray so now I have these awful roots. Possibly worse than dark roots if that is possible.

We are having the grand kids take turns staying with us this year. We had a 9 year old girl last week, this week an 8 year old boy. I love having them I get to know them in a different way. It makes me wish I didn't have to work so I could spend more time with them.

The Princess had surgery to put tubes in her ears last week. It went well, she won't stop talking now.

We are all going to the water park this Saturday I am really excited about that. This will be the first time for the Princess. Last time Korbin did a suicide jump into the deep water hopefully no one attempts that this trip. Casey had to save him. He said Sasey saved my life.

Casey is gong to do a rent to own on my rent house. I bought that house when she was 12 now it will be hers, my Mom's house is now mine. I like that we keep those connections to the past.

I have been going through the garage some more, tons of work but very satisfying. We are almost done with the main part I think just 2 more working days. Then we start on the back 3 storage areas. I got a quote to have the new garage built. The hard part will be tearing down the old one. Hard physically and emotionally. I am going to save the wood though I want to make some furniture. It is probably about 80 years old, maybe?

Update

The trip out to New Mexico was very nice, we got to Ruidoso on Saturday night and Sunday we went exploring riding up in the mountains and looking around town. We decided to take a trip to Cloudcroft and Alamogordo on Monday.

We went to breakfast and had a wonderful meal went sight seeing a little bit there in Ruidoso and then headed out for Cloudcroft. Only a few miles out of town an 18 wheeler that was going to turn stopped in the road instead because a pickup was coming up on the shoulder of the road beside him.

Scott tried to stop we started sliding towards the back of the truck and swerved before hitting it. The back of the back laid over and we were sliding down and across the highway.

Scott's left leg came off his peg and and slammed my leg between him and the bike, that popped the bike back upright and Scott was able to get control and get us stopped on the side of the road.

It felt like my leg was broken. It was so painful, took a trip to the Emergency Room and had X-Rays done they said it wasn't broken gave me crutches and pain pills. The rest of the trip I spent in pain, hopped up on pain pills and terrified to ride the bike, which by the way I had no choice in since that is how we got to New Mexico.

The trip home was the worst I was scared to death and in a tremendous amount of pain.

I have not been back on the back since we got home. I don't know that I will ever get back on, I am just so afraid.

It has been 3 weeks and my leg is still bruised and I still have quite a bit of pain. I went for a follow up with my doctor and he did X-Rays it is not broken but he said I have a deep bone bruise and it will take up to 6 weeks for it to feel back to normal.

Pictures

It's Been a Long While

• Really I have no excuses, I just haven't been here in a long while.
• Trip on the bike to New Mexico is coming up soon. Super excited about this one.
• The princess is growing up so fast. She was moved to a much nicer day care center and it is the difference between night and day when we go to pick her up. I am extremely happy about that change.
• Everyone keeps saying she needs to be on commercials. I need to post a video of all her cuteness.
• She got hurt when we went to the family reunion, we had to take her to the ER her fingers were all cut open in a playground accident.
• When we arrived to the family reunion destination Christopher said Oh I remember this place we are going to have fun, Korbin said I don't remember it but I am going to next time because it's cool.
• Korbin graduates from Kindergarten next week. We are going today to try to find him some boots and new clothes. He loves to Cowboy Up.
• I went last week to buy some jeans I bet I tried on 20 pair, different brands,styles,cuts etc. I was exhausted but it was worth it I did find a couple of good pairs.
• Went through my closet last night to get rid of things I don't wear. Why is there always so much stuff I don't wear anymore?
• I am ready for school to be out. Summer is my favorite. Going to the lake, water parks, Six Flags etc. Now this year having the bike is a plus also.
• I am going to attend a family reunion, my Mom's side of the family. A reunion I have not gone to in probably 10 or 12 years. I have connected with 2 cousins I haven't seen since I was a kid and we all decided to go if the others were going.
• My oldest brother will be attending. He has not had a relationship with me since my Mom got sick and passed away. Hmm not sure how that will go.
• I am getting close to having the old garage cleaned out, I will then put a new roof on and I think I am going to start building some outside furniture projects. I have been itching to have some things built and finally decided if you want something done, do it yourself.

Thursday's Thoughts

• I am glad it's Thursday I am off tomorrow so when today is done I am in weekend mode.
• I have to take Karley to get a haircut this evening.
• We have been working around the house a lot. Paint, stain, crown molding everywhere you look.
• My son got a cat since the last time I was here. We stopped to help her she was in the middle of a busy parking lot and soon found out how she got there, she hitched a ride on our car. Hanging on to the frame right beside the back tire. We couldn't find her, then discovered what she had done about 20 minutes later we saw her tail hanging down. So he begged and she now lives with us. I am too soft when it comes to animals, but she has been to the vet and she is fixed and had all of her shots. So it was a good thing for her, me I am not so sure about.
• The Princess can say Christopher it is the cutest thing you have ever heard. Karley and Korbin are sad, she won't say their names.
• We are going riding this weekend, supposed to head up to Oklahoma to eat lunch, there are several bikes going should be fun.
• My in laws bought a bike, we went riding a few weeks ago, it was their first trip. I am still laughing out loud, he is like the guy on Wild Hogs, he laid it down twice when they came to a stop. They were fine so it was hilarious.
• My husband doesn't want to ride with them anymore, he had to pick up the bike each time and he worries so much about them he can't enjoy the trip. Good times.
• I have to go this weekend and buy my son some new shoes, boys go through shoes like crazy.
• When I left work yesterday the temp in my car said 71 degrees. I drove to Decatur which is about 7 miles and it was 54 degrees by the time I got there. Pouring down rain. I missed the hail but heard there was some. It was amazing.
• All the kids are coming to the house for Easter, it should be a lot of fun. I started buying eggs I have to get ready for all of those grand kids.

What Are We Thinking?

I was talking to a friend and he shared a story with me that causes so many thoughts and emotions that I thought I would share it here and see what everyone else thinks.

Three years ago he discovered that his wife had cheated on him, with someone he knew. Now I am not a close personal friend of his wife so I don't know what was going on there, but I was around him at the time and he talked about it and it devastated him.

Apparently he talked about that with other people we knew and a friendship with another woman that we both knew bloomed.

According to him this friendship became an affair and lasted for several years. Behind his wife and her husband's backs. Well somehow his wife discovered what was going on and as you can imagine it caused a lot of problems for them. So they split up, in the meantime she has told her husband that this guy is stalking her, I can only assume to cover in case he hears something.

So my friend thinks he is in love with this woman, he is separated from his wife and his children are mad at him.


He tells her he wants to be with her and try to build a relationship, I don't know why at this point but whatever, She tells him she is seeing someone else. What? There is now a third man in the mix and she wants to have my friend on the side like they have done for the past three years because it has been great. Huh? He said it hasn't been great for him he has been miserable. She tells him that he's weak. Fast forward a couple of weeks.

Two marriages and now another relationship, they aren't even together. He is miserable doesn't have his wife or his girlfriend. I have not discussed this with her. I don't know her side, I can't imagine that she is any happier with the outcome. So what was the past three years?

I am in no way judging either of them I have been in situations where I did not make great decisions. I have also been in situations where the decisions I made should have been made sooner. So no judgement just observation from some one guilty of the same human flaws. I just want to ask why do we pile so much emotional baggage on to ourselves what are we thinking?

Wednesday's Random Thoughts

• We worked out this morning. We started going to Fitness 4 Life last Monday. I really like it. I feel improvement every day this morning I was to 99% of the targeted pace. Woo-hoo.
• Went to the dentist yesterday for a cleaning and a small filling. It has been so long since I had a filling I started freaking out just a little like I didn't remember what to expect. Deep breathes, calming thoughts. Oh yeah that's all there is, no big deal. Why did I start stressing?
• Today I am going to the eye doctor. Now that I am old I can't see anything. It really is sad and strange how it happens seemingly overnight once you hit 40.
• Tomorrow to the doctor for follow-up on blood work and then Friday the chiropractor. Ugh.
• I am trying to get everything in before Exxon takes over XTO because we aren't sure what the changes to the insurance are going to be.
• I told my husband yesterday what a great husband he was and his response reinforced how wonderful he truly is, he said it is easy to be wonderful to you. Aww. Is that not the best compliment?
• Another earthquake in Haiti. I am speechless.
• The guys are playing golf today, hopefully the rain holds off until they are done.

Haiti and how it effects me.

I have been, like most people, watching the news about the devastation in Haiti. Although I don't have family, friends or ties to Haiti I have been especially effected by the stories of the elderly.
I know that this stems from my Mom. I have that desire like a childless woman desires to have a baby. I am an orphaned child who desires that relationship, maybe with someone who has no one.
I read an article about a group of elderly people who survived the collapse of the nursing home where they lived only to lay outside and die with no food and water. No diaper changes since the earthquake and the rats coming after them. Younger people stealing what they do have while they lie there unable to stop them.
Then this morning I listened as it was reported that orphans will be brought to the United States for care. I started crying. Everyone wants to take care of babies. Which is a good thing but I need an older person to take care of.
Now there is not a lot I can do in Haiti but there are nursing homes and neighborhoods with older people in my community that don't have anyone to visit them, send a card, bring some flowers etc. So I decided this morning to write and encourage everyone to do what you can for Haiti and then maybe doing something in your community too. I am going to send a letter to the Committee on Aging and some of the Nursing homes in my area and see if they can match me with someone who maybe needs me as much as I need them.
I am doing this in honor of my mother Oleta Hollis who would be turning 82 on February 4, 2010.

What a difference a day makes.

First picture is after she woke up from her nap at daycare. They called her Mom and said I think she has pink eye. So Casey took her to the clinic Friday night. Fast forward to Saturday morning in the next picture. Poor baby.

After leaving the clinic with her Friday night, I went home and my grandson started throwing up his toenails. The grand babies are dropping like flies.

The weather was nice yesterday we went riding on the bike. It was a little cool first thing but it warmed up nicely.

We started working out last week, we are going to 4 Minute Fitness, three times a week. So far it's pretty good it doesn't take long but you can really feel the results.

I want to go see The Book of Eli. Hopefully I can do that soon.

We are scheduled for a final hearing on the kids the first week of February. Don't get too excited they have postponed it about a zillion times.

I have been going through their medical/dental out of pocket expenses to get ready for the hearing, these kids are expensive and they are healthy. I can't even imagine what people with children that need continuous care must spend.

I read about the elderly people in Haiti who survived the collapse of the nursing home and now they are dying outside of the rubble due to lack of water and food. I want to bring them home with me. The elderly are my weakness, I guess because of my Mom. I was in tears at the end of the article. I hope the help gets there soon. I wish I could do more.

I watched Julie and Julia Friday night, what a good movie. I have to be honest it was better than I expected.

We went to see Avatar, I am now on a mission to get everyone to see that movie, that was the best movie I have seen in years.

I still haven't seen Blindside ugh, I know what am I waiting on? I really want to see this one too. There seems to be to many good movies right now. Most of the time there aren't enough.

Bon Jovi is coming to Dallas y'all. I really need to attend this concert. I went to their concert once before and let me tell you I was pretty impressed.

The Princess

Look at this in her very own big girl bed. I went yesterday and ordered her nap mat for school, she is out of the baby room and in with the big kids. She is growing up so fast.

Catching Up

• Christmas was wonderful. Spent a lot of time with the kids and grand kids.


• Got to see my brother and sister-in-law.


• Went to the movies all of the kids and grand kids, we saw the new Alvin and the Chipmunks. It was cute


• New Years Eve was awesome. Went to the Stars game. They won and it was a really good game then to the celebration Big D NYE loads of good music. I was able to invite a friend I haven't seen in awhile that was a lot of fun.


• New Years Day we went to the movies and saw Sherlock Holmes. That was good. Didn't expect it to be so long though.


• Stayed home yesterday because they closed the schools due to ice. It was all clear in just a few hours. Ugh. I could have went to work.